Hearts and bandages

I think it’s stupid of me to be so muddle-headed just because I’m with certain people when I actually can stay calm and mature if I want to. I think this is some sort of regression. I easily revert to my muddle-headed self when there are people who can cover up for me. Mostly this sort of regression occurs when I feel that I can’t take care of myself because I’m lonely. That is so stupid. I have been living on my own for years, and I’m still alive.

But I’m feeling that this regression has gone too far this time. What to do…