Hearts and bandages

And I have tried to study, but I ended up falling asleep… I’m getting lazier and lazier, and I lose control over my life. I can’t really handle my feelings right now, there are too much things going on.

First and foremost, school is tiring. I don’t have the energy to do anything, and I end up writing retakes.
Second, my health is tiring as well. Fortunately, I’m feeling better today. A couple of days ago, I almost fainted.
Third, relations are confusing. Why can’t guys continue being friends with me just because I say that I’m not interested in a relationship?
Fourth, the American Dream. I want to be free. I want to change my way of living. I want things to change drastically, but things never change drastically in a positive way. The only change I see is that I have another exam to make until next week, and so on…
I am panicking!

Also, I have lost someone important in my life, but at the same time, I found someone as important.

And Veronika, I’ll always be with you.