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So after I wake up next morning I’ll start reading those x number of pages from those two books until Wednesday. Then I’ll read another number of pages of some other book, and so on and so on… these tasks hold on forever. Feels like the only thing I’m doing nowadays is studying and surfing on the Internet. Shopping by myself has been the only fun thing to do that makes me feel less lonely, but it’s expensive and I still return home alone, with nothing else but my Internet and my studies. Is it this kind of life that people call “no life”? But how do you get a life? Is a life something that you earn by doing more “meaningful” things? Okay, I know I should just go get some interests. I really love drawing, but my brain is in coma so I can’t do anything. Besides, artistic equipment costs both my arms and legs. At least studying is for free (except for the costs for the books, another part of my body gone), and the Internet, too (I keep telling myself it is, but I pay my Internet bills along with the rent).
I think that I have gained weight again. I feel guilty for eating like a horse while not exercising at all. I just don’t know what sort of exercise I should have. Gothenburg is getting ice cold at night (cars everywhere during the day) so I can’t go out jogging (besides, father would instantly kungfu-kicking kill me if I go out late) and this building’s athletic room is always filled with beefy big students from 20 to 40 years old (all of them taller and bigger than me, in case you wonder). I can’t believe that the athletic room can be so popular. You can go there at four in the morning, it doesn’t matter, there will still be at least one or two guys (men?) there body building. Like they didn’t have enough muscles. Their arms are almost longer and bigger than my legs. Well, they won’t be long enough if I don’t start exercising!
Sometimes I just want to have someone to hold me. Someone that I can call for and he’ll come over and just hold me. But that someone is far away and I’m partly not even mentally prepared for him. I’m sure that another special Someone living among the clouds is looking at me, pointing and shaking His head, and keeps whispering in my ear to take good care of my heart. I don’t know why I still even think of searching the One and Only. I already left him and there’s no turning back. And why would he even try and go after me, after what I did to him? But I still have the One among the clouds. Please God, just hold on to me tightly forever.
This post will be partly dedicated to all fathers all over the world: Happy Father’s day!
I myself have not many good experiences with fathers ever, except for seeing other people’s fathers and envy the children with good fathers while feeling sorry for the children with bad ones. But of course, not only can fathers be the good and/or bad, mothers can, too. Everyone can. However, whether your old man is good or bad, just give him some chocolate so he can gain some weight.
A couple of days ago, I had a bad dream. I can’t really call it nightmare because I’ve dreamt about worse things than this one (I’ll come back to that later).
I dreamt about me hitting my forehead on something that looks like a chest of drawers, or a shelf, I’m not sure which of them though… Anyways, and then my skull just cracked on the forehead and I started bleeding like some sort of waterfall. I covered my wound with my hand and asked people for help, but none of them were willing to help, they just kept telling me that I was bleeding. (I already knew that, but I needed help, HELP, stupids!)
Gah, I hate bad dreams. The worst dream I’ve ever had though was a dream about a certain person. This person seeks to torture me with her presence also in my dreams, which is scary. Dreamt about her doing all naughty stuff on people that I really care about. Hands off them, you’re sickening them :(.
Another couple of days ago, a guy barged in while I was lying half-naked in my bed. A bargain? No, just a trespasser ;(. He accidently came into my apartment because he had all his focus on some sort of paper that he was reading. Funny though, that when I asked him what he was doing, he looked more frightened than I was. Am I that ugly?
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I was in Alingsås again, on seminar. It started at 3.00 PM and ended at 4.15 PM, so I ran to the train station to get on the train back to Gothenburg to buy cards for my father, my sister and my brother and send them before the post service emptied the mailboxes at 6.00 PM.
I was so stressed (sister’s birthday is tomorrow, brother’s birthday is on Friday and Father’s day is on Sunday, so I decided to send them at the same time), ran everywhere to find some nice cards. They have to arrive tomorrow. So I finally ran to Akademibokhandeln, and found some. Quickly wrote a message for them, put them in an envelope and then ran to the mailbox to send it. I don’t think the ink got enough time to dry, so they’ll probably get cards stained in ink :(. Bah!
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I’m finished with the examination! Finished finished finished!
Bring out some liquor and come celebrate with me!
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Handed in the last edition of my examination, hope I won’t get it back within weeks…
Just to fill out the post… It’s a very good song, though :). Faye Wong, super famous with the main theme of the movie Hero and for the main theme of Final Fantasy VIII’s Eyes on Me. If you still don’t know her, then remember: Wikipedia and Google are your friends.
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Welcome to the second and last chapter of Trinity Wong. I guess it’s been too much pressure on her singing all those songs (she has three songs and four videos) which made her stop singing, or maybe it was because she had to attend school. For whatever reason, she has two more videos. The latest one has terrible descriptions about poor little Trinity crying because the lyrics of the song was too fast, so I’ve decided not to have it here. If you still want to watch it, click here.
This is a song, also with Joey Yung, called “The only thing in this world”. It’s a sweet song about children and their relationship with their parents.
(Ps. Must be a custom made karaoke lyrics text, since it ends with “I always to” when it’s supposed to be “do”)
This is Trinity Wong’s version. She’s only three years old here. Note that she has another, improved version, recorded when she was six years old. But I think that video isn’t as funny as this one (she says that she really, really needed to pee in the end). So she was actually holding it in because she was so serious about this taking. Call it stupid or whatever, I call it super professional. I must say that I am amazed by her strong willpower at such age.
If you really want to see the second edition of this song, please click here. This was specially made for her mother and grandmother and her one-year-old newly-learned-to-speak little brother is following her footsteps by singing this song with her.
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This is a song with Joey Yung, it’s a really good song:
And this is this little girl Trinity Wong’s version. She’s really cute but not very good:
Trinity Wong lives in Vancouver, Canada. The video was recorded at her father’s homestudio when she was four years old when she couldn’t read any Chinese at all. She is now seven years old, but I’m not sure if she has begun to study Chinese at school. I’m not sure of what they say about home language education in Canada, but in Sweden, you study Chinese when you start at Elementary school. I also studied some Chinese when I was in kindergarden. I think I was around five years old.
Anyway, I’ll be back tomorrow with the next song by Trinity Wong!
Now, back to schoolwork (bleh!)
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Just wanted to say: Happy halloween, folks :D.
But halloween hasn’t been very happy for me. I’ve been in a very weird mood lately. I don’t know why, and I can’t help it. I can’t really focus on things and I easily forget things. I was so absent-minded that someone stole my tram card and I didn’t even notice that. So it was off for a new one. 300 SEK more. I have to live with a tight budget this month again…
And I have to hand in my second edition of my examination tonight, even though it’s unfinished. The teacher told me that she wanted to see it so that she could help make the third edition even better. While the other ones can make their second edition perfect already, and maybe some have their first edition perfectly made? I don’t know what to say… am I that bad in school? Or have I just become bad?
